The Simplicity Of Your Individual Voice: How Does it Feel?

'Lost souls are obsessed by something that disconnects them from life.' - Moonwind (Soul)

This is my voice I speak from it.

My soul owns it and my heart gives it the gravity it deserves. My mind makes it concise and at times breaks it. I find myself faulted by it sometimes. I am hurt by it. It hurts others. It joins me in my madness and it takes me away to a place, I’m not sure I am capable of coming back from at times. It brings me great joy and laughter. It brings me closer to friends and further from family members.  It has broken hearts and mended wounds. It has driven my daughter away and brought her closer to me than ever. However, it is mine. It is the roar that brings on the lion that I continue to search my very soul for.

The very idea of writing terrifies me. What if I can not bring forth the lion that is in my soul. Words and talking and writing is such a primitive form of communication. How am I possibly ever going to be able to use the “English” language as a way to communicate how I feel. Not to mention that, what I feel, really doesn’t fucking matter anymore, to our society.

Why would anyone care about the emotions I feel, when they are too busy being frustrated or feeling sorry for themselves for getting a negative comment about their appearance on some insignificant social media platform.  Why on earth would anyone care what anyone feels because if one is simply feeling how could that possibly be adult? You see thanks to Freud, if we are not thinking then we are not mature. However, we still sit on the edge of our seats awaiting the next Pixar film because we want to actually feel something, in a world filled with robots. 

Do we need to feel something? Of course, we do because we are beings of feeling. We are a life form. All life forms feel. We may say, crustaceans do not have nerve endings, they do to feel.  This doesn’t mean they do not feel.  This means they do not hurt.  They have thin appendages named Antenna, that help them to feel their way across the ocean floor. We have become so accustomed too happily and easily switching off our empathy centres, that everything now has to be an argument of thought. This causes feelings to become an afterthought. We denounce the opinions of others because they are arguing from their feelings. We don’t like the truth because it can hurt. It can show us things about ourselves that we don’t like. The truth makes us feel things that are uncomfortable and scary. The truth tells us who we really are and that’s often not a nice feeling. Therefore we neglect the truth for a much easier path and justify our poor actions with thoughts. 

A man or woman’s voice is not only formed from thought, but it is heavily informed by their feelings and their emotions. We are so switched off from this in the western world, that we don’t even realise when we are speaking from emotion as apposed too thought. We think all that comes from our mouths and via our voices is based upon pure thought. This causes us to then think that because something is not complicated it has not been thought about and if it has not been thought about then it must be immature.  Well, unfortunately, simple is just that, simple.  Simple is not black or white. Simple is an understanding of the grey areas that can be communicated to a level of understanding that even a child can understand. For instance, when we teach a child to draw a circle we teach them the applications of a circle.  The circle is fairly black and white, it's just a circle.  However, when we contort the circle when we squish it or stretch it out, it becomes an oval.  When we cut that stretched out shape in half it becomes an arc. The same principle can be applied to the square and triangle.  These are all grey areas. However, by first teaching the primary shapes we can simplify the complexities. 

This is what we teach to children. Yet it is simple, therefore it is childish. It’s time to stop complicating things, for complication’s sake. It’s time to bring back an understanding of feeling. Respect for it. We are feeling beings, we are thinking beings too. One is not more important than the other. So let’s get back to feeling and take back and own that we are empathetic beings. We don’t have to think all the time.

I Challenge You:

Spend the next two weeks writing one page a day. Get yourself a journal, sit down once a day and fill just one page of writing. One that’s all I ask. It could be about whatever you’d like, your day, a thought, a piece of art, whatever. Just write.

As always ladies and gentlemen, Happy new year and don’t forget,

Stay Weird 

Written and edited by Jordan Morpeth

© Jordan Morpeth 2020